I get so emotional, baby

Ain't it shocking what love can do?!  Not really.  What's shocking is that despite my bouts of anxiety and heart wrenching Facebook updates during our "2 weeks 'o FUN" leading to my last day in Cali, I didn't get overly emotional about my recent assignment to Germany until I got here...  yesterday, to be exact.  I put on a strong front from the day I was notified I'd be mobilizing all the way up until I checked into my living quarters.  It's Europe, after all!  Why be sad, right?

I cannot tell you how amazing it has already been, and I've only left the base once so far to have dinner (a Chinese restaurant of all places, lol!  Trust me though, it was different.  For starters water is NOT free.  In fact it's rationed out here.  And check out my fortune in Deutsch!  Cool, right?!) 

Translation: Your intuition shows you the right way

What's not so cool, obviously, is being apart from my loved ones.  Even the possibility of moving up in my career as a psychiatric technician had to be put on hold (a nursing recruiter called me TWO days before leaving to meet with her).  

Timing is everything.  You thought I was going to say that things happen for a reason.  That too.  I've learned that time is not something one can always manipulate to get to the places in life that you want to go.  Like the "time" I purposely volunteered to tour Korea for a year so I can get stationed in Germany (my #1 overseas preference).  It's hard to believe that was six years ago.  I didn't end up PCS'ing here because I chose instead to give up my career in active duty to raise a child that I am currently thousands of miles away from -- the very reason I am emotional today.  The irony!  I am now in the land I have always wanted to live, without the one person that taught me HOW to live.  I guess things really do come full circle.  And really, if I hadn't gone to Korea, well, Kahlil wouldn't have been conceived haha!!  Reason indeed.

The military BRAT and military "spouse" haha, holdin' it down without mama.

 I still struggle with the uncertainty of my military career; like whether I'm cut out for it, but I definitely am proud to say I continue to serve because I just want to serve.  Plain and simple.  Being out here allows me the opportunity to really do what I was trained to do as a Medical Logistician in an aero evacuation unit: to help bring people back home.  As a "loggie" we don't exactly get patient contact, but with programs like The Wounded Warrior Project, I hope to be involved in such a way that I can reach out and help a wounded service member.  Even just to talk to them, or help carry equipment, or hold their hand and pray with them.

I know being temporarily apart from Kahlil is more of a positive thing than negative.  Although it aches to hear him talk and see him via internet play, dance, and make silly faces at a 15 second delay because EVERYONE in the building is online, I know that really it's all good.  I'm lucky to even have access to such luxuries.  I'm in good hands.  He's in good hands.  His and my adventure have just begun.  Any great adventure comes with challenges, fun, and GOALS.  We were briefed today to set goals for ourselves during our time here, and that is exactly what I intend to do.  Spirituality.  Education.  Career development.  Travel.  Even beauty and fitness.. like forreal, forreal...  A busy mom tends to let herself go.  But now's the chance to bring sexy health back.  And of course, blogging.  Lots more time to myself to be able to put my thoughts down.  Very therapeutic.  You should try it.

Sent Kahlil his first snail mail.  I especially love the stamp, as standard as a U.S. stamp gets, but means so much.  I sincerely am thankful to the service members who truly sacrifice down range. 

Funny how my blogs went from being about furniture and plants to this ha!  Mixing it up as always.  I think it's safe to say LoftRemix will be evolving a great deal in the next few months.  It's been a while, but here's Whitney performing in Europe.